Inspired by the Buy Nothing New post by Expat Since Birth I decided to re-think everything my spending habits, my closet, my stuff. Then, I dismissed it thinking I couldn’t participate, but, then, I decided maybe I could, at least partially.
I decided to start by clearing out my closet (and my homes) of items I didn’t need (and no longer fit) by selling some items on Poshmark and donating others. I’m slowly listing things, but you can find my closet here: https://poshmark.com/closet/katkomin
Amazingly enough, after going through my closet of things that no longer fit and were “no longer my style” (almost everything), I was at the interesting point where I needed to start shopping for new clothes. I began by shopping at Anthropologie — my go to store. I purchased some things from the sale section and went on my merry way. A few weeks later, I began re-thinking my spending habits. Why am I buying new things? Why can’t I buy second hand? I have no problem taking old clothes from friends or using my mom’s old clothes. Do I really need to buy new? Why?
After a few more days went by, and my thoughts often drifted back to her post, I thought about the reasons I shouldn’t buy new. I object to the treatment of retail workers and garment workers. I’m trying to be more green. I enjoy a good deal, and by buying at a thrift store I’m helping others. I decided to take the plunge and begin buying second hand.
I started off purchasing items on Poshmark, then proceeded to Ebay, and, finally, to Goodwill. I’m happy to say I’m replenishing my closet with things that fit and that are quality and “me”. I’ve also found quite a few steals!
Yesterday, I took a trip to Goodwill where I found a pair of Louboutins for $50! I snatched it up along with a new with tags designer wool jumper and a breathtakingly beautiful Rebecca Taylor skirt in a size 4 — items I could never afford new.
I returned the Louboutins, deciding they weren’t really “me”, that they would sit in my now-empty closet and I purchased it for the brand not the style (and it would have bothered me if they weren’t real…). However, I kept the skirt (it was $6! Originally $200!).
But the skirt doesn’t fit my mom pointed out. She suggested I sell it on eBay because I don’t fit it. I agreed and made the listing.
Last night, however, as I sat looking at the skirt, I asked myself, “Why?” Why don’t I fit it? Why can’t I fit it eventually? I’m working out, I’m eating better, I’m losing weight slowly. I will fit it.”
I made a conscious effort, right there, to dedicate myself to my health. I had been researching for a while the need to eat ” organic whole foods” and give up processed foods and participating with an experimental exercise program, the Post-Natal For the Glow, but last night realized I needed to do more. I needed to rethink my values and myself.
I realized that I had an aversion to thrift shopping because I had never really given it a chance, but by re-thinking this and actually going in and shopping, I found out there was no reason to have this aversion.
I realized that by putting the skirt up for sale I was confirming that I would not lose the weight because I couldn’t lose enough weight to fit it,. When this realization came to me, I knew that my thinking and my beliefs were holding me back, just like it was holding me back from shopping at second-hand stores. So, I decided to find a book that could support my ideas in eating organic whole foods. I found and purchased The Science of Skinny, and read the first few chapters. I almost cried. I could relate to the author on a very real level. I may not have experienced everything she did, but I had felt the turmoil, the embarrassment of being fat, and the helplessness of not being able to overcome it.
I realized after reading the chapter, after buying second hand clothes, and after keeping that skirt, I had started on my way towards re-invention and becoming a better me. I just need to keep on that path.
As I’ve learned from For the Glow, from The Science of Skinny, and that blog post about buying nothing new, I need to live my life better. I need to de-clutter my value system, keeping the ones that I need and replacing others with new values for my health and my life.